Emphasis

"It all depends on where we fix our attention." (p.78)

Where do I fix my attention, place my emphasis?

"Stay close to the Light of the world and we do not walk in darkness about the will of God." (p.76)

BUT...

"He does not lay out a master blueprint for our lives." (p. 76)

"All change, however good, is experienced as loss.  And with loss, the temptation is to run to the past, like the Israelites in the desert. ... But God in His mercy would  not let them go back.  He had better plans for them and called them to follow Him into His yet-to-be-unfolded goodness." (p. 77)

So what is my focal point?  What am I trying to figure out?  Where is my emphasis?

All the time, I doubt His plan.  I have so many master blueprints written out, its nuts.  God brought me to this camp 3 years ago after ripping out a massive set a blueprints from my hands.  But I keep drawing up plans!!!  I want answers.  I want reasons.  I fear the unknown.  I blame God for change and doubt His goodness, comparing His plan (or what I perceive of it) to my own set of blueprints.  My own understanding of my past, present and future.  This emphasis leaves me angry, lost, and tired.

"But the sweetest thing I've ever heard

Is that I don't have to have the answers,
Just a little light to call my own.

Though it pales in comparison
To the overarching shadows,
A speck of light can reignite the sun
And swallow darkness whole."
Emphasis by Sleeping At Last


I don't have the have the answers.  All I need is The Light of The World.

-Mike