"I often make quick judgements and interpretations of people's behavior. I withhold forgiveness to those who sin against me, avoiding or cutting them off when they do something to hurt me. I subconsciously keep records on the love I give out. I have trouble really listening to another person's pain, disappointments, or needs without becoming preoccupied with myself. My Christian life is still primarily about doing, not being with him."
Yikes!!! As I read this, all I could think to write on the blog was, "Watch out everyone around me! Stay away from Katie DeSantis." These results are all too accurate. Reading each line felt like a punch to the gut as each and every word rang true. That's pretty much all.
However, I think I'm filled with a strange sense of excitement about the prospects of becoming more emotionally and spiritually mature. I'm excited about embracing the reality of emotions and the freedom that God has given us to approach him with such honesty. I've already seen in the last few days since retreat how God had presented me with opportunities to embrace emotional maturity; and though I certainly have floundered on some of these occasions, the opportunities are welcomed. I'm so anxious to see how God is going to bring about a good work in me and in all of us through this book this summer.
Thanks Katie! I like your "Strange sense of excitement" - made me think of how the disciples probably felt every time Jesus was around them and maybe just maybe it is the same for you! Maybe just maybe the strange sense of excitement you feel is Jesus at work?
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